(a post by Sandra) I borrowed the title from Friederike´s last post, as it expresses the feelings I have today. After a few days of standstill, I know changes are on the way. It´s not for the first time that I have 2-3 days full of selfdoubts and questioning each and everything, but most of all questioning my art work. This back and forth comes in waves. It´s like low tide and flood.
I had a discussion regarding wholesales prices for my pieces. After this talk I felt very bad because the prices I would have to give to shops buying my works, I can´t give. The other side of selling my works through shops would mean "massproduction" for me.
So this discussion set the ball rolling. I feel I have to make a decision in which direction I want to go on my artist way. It´s only one year ago, I started "herzensart". It was born out of a very playful phase of my life. I wanted to try new things, my inner child was stronger than ever and I loved to play with colors (I even painted a wall of my studio pink). My art became "childish" in a way. Don´t get me wrong, I love all the stuffed, colorful creatures that were born through playing and experimenting. But...... there´s my inner voice which pipes up perseverative to tell me "hey, what about your other side, the one which is more serious, more silent, spiritual, the one which wants to be recognized as a serious artist?"
Maybe there is a way to connect these two sides which are in me and bring it together in my works. My "art toys" (I don´t like this word and I´m still searching for a word that fits better for me) evolve to something more "grown up". I love the spiritual aura and meaning of my dream guardians. I have a clue of being on the right path ....
winds of change.... Love, Sandra
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